I'm becoming a paranoid mess.


There's a kid in my drivers ed class that sits behind me that I am convinced constantly stares at me.
Its one of those situations where in my mind i make up elaborate situations about what's going on behind my back.

I've recently caught myself thinking about smoking.
but I'm paranoid [BIG SURPRISE]that i'll be that kid that all it took was one cigarette and now her life is one big fuck up and she was "derailed from a focused blah blah..."

lets keep my parents thinking I'm a good student.
and that the pressure doesn't get to my head.
and that they totally know what i like and don't like.

I'm becoming one of those annoying people that whine about their lives and who need to grown up and get on with their sorry ass life.

GREAT.
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